Colorado

After four days in Colorado, coming back to school is more than difficult. Its like trying to pick up where you left off after changing careers. Being in Denver was like living a dream. Any outdoor activity that you can think of and the weather to do every sport. Beautiful summers and not too cold winters, sign me up. The odd thing is that I didn't run once while I was there. Sweet, an avid outdoorsman and aspiring endurance athlete, and myself ran the gamut of outdoor activities (cycling, hiking, climbing). We took a side hike in Rocky Mountain National Park up to an alpine lake. The hike was hard, but so worth it. We left the McNultys at a lower lake and went on to hike up in snow and ice uphill, fairly steep, to the next lake and the end of the trail.

Seeing Dan with Meghan made me so happy for him. After past relationships that he and I have had... He deserves to be with someone like her. She is able to make him happy, which he wasn't for a while in college. And for a while, I mean ever. The kid was only happy when C was there. When she wasn't there they were fighting and... it just wasn't the best situation. Anyways, we commisserated in our past relationship stories on the way down the mountain and came to a similar conclusion. Cut ties to exes. The only thing that exes bring to the table is past knowledge of you. They typically have only negative things to say, or skirt any important issue. Any conversation that occurs is loaded with pleasantries that seem to lead to an endless circle of small talk. Its like being stuck in a roundabout with no escape from the enless circles. Frustrating to say the least. Moral of the story: exes are better left as pictures in a box or people that you see at the mall and swerve to avoid.

There is that feeling when you see an ex, like you somehow are embarrassed. They have seen you at your most vunerable and now are with someone else. They have that knowledge of you with your guard down and have the power to invoke those memories of helplessness. Its like being caught with your pants down and someone taking a picture. That memory will always be there to haunt you or make you laugh. The other thing about exes is that they change and sooner or later, hopefully, you realize that you are better off now than you were with them. Or you try to picture yourself in a relationship with them now and its either scares or repulses you. For example, one of my exes who has wanted to stay in contact with me, tried to either date or just hook up with one of my friends. Interesting you say? Well, apparently this is not the first offense. She is a repeat offender with my friends or guys that I know fairly well. Its like I'm her conduit to meeting new people. Needless to say, I have started cutting ties. Moral number two= once you break up with someone, don't try to start anything up again. There was a reason that you broke up in the first place, leave it that way.